Liam is One Year Old

One year and two days if your counting. ;) Thrusday I was in full sappiness mode!  Each time I glanced at the clock I knew exactly what was going on at that time last year, I was full of joyful tears all day!  I simply couldn't wait to scoop up my baby and kiss him!

It's hard to believe I've been Liam's mom for a year now, well really more like almost two years (personally I believe life begins at conception so I've been a mom since Oct '10). I digress, I've been a mom now for a little while, it's hard to remember life before him.  We wanted a child, we tried for a him, we prayed for the blessing of a child.  And when we did get pregnant we weren't certain my permanency would make it so I spent each day loving on this little baby inside of me just praying I would have a "outside baby".  Being a mom is a challenge, it makes you grow in new ways and if your priorities weren't in line to begin with they will be rapidly!  It wasn't a difficult change for me, I was so ready but I had a lot to learn!  Luckily Liam had never been a newborn before so he didn't know I was still figuring a few things out! ;) I've learned to love in new ways and I certainly love more than I ever thought possible, each day my love grows.  I often think I can't love him anymore then the smallest thing will happen and my love grows wider and taller and fuller, it's taught me so much about the love of our creator.

It's funny how proud of him I get over funny things like standing.  I giggle a little to myself over this pride, I find myself cheering him on, out loud, Good Job Buddy!  Yay Liam!!!!  And he loves it, he'll stand and sit a thousand times if I cheer him on, it's hobby both of us enjoy.  I recently taught him to put smaller items inside of larger ones (cups), the other night he decided to put away his bath toys, he'd pick up one and put it in the basket we store them in.  One by one he put away about half of the toys.  I was so amazed!  Here is this little person that one year ago couldn't hold up his own head and now he's putting his bath toys away! WOW! My how time flies!

I cherish these moments, I try desperately to live in them, store them up in my soul to keep forever.  Motherhood is such a incredible blessing, my soul has new purpose and more love than it can possible hold.  I love each phase but I'm so excited for the next one.  I feel so blessed!

Much Love,
-Jen

Breathing and beating

This morning I got up and prepared myself for work, I felt wonderful which made me nervous ("why have my symptoms disappeared today?!?!")  I won't lie to you I had convinced myself we were getting bad news today so everything freaked me out this morning.  I went to work and did my best to stay focus, yeah right, I stared at the clock for a good 5.5 straight hours!

Finally 2pm arrived and V and I were in the waiting room just praying to be called soon.  Thankfully my Dr is a straight to the point kind of guy, I didn't have to weight myself or do anything of that other stuff, just undress from the waist down and wait for the Dr to come in.  V and I sat there in silence, he had a cute smile on his face, I was full of nervous chatter.  Dr Wonderful came in and got straight to business with the ultrasound...... and there (s)he was!!!  We could clearly see the baby and the heart beat flickering away!!! Just one little babe in there with a heart beat of 174!!  Our estimated due date is officially June 14, 2011!!!  That means I am 8 weeks tomorrow!  I am over the moon!  I just kept saying "wow", while V just stared at that screen in total awe!  Something V and I didn't share with anyone is at our last appointment the Dr thought there could be two babes in there (there was one obvious gestational sac and a void that the Dr thought could be a babe just a little earlier).  While V and I would more than happily accept twins I am relieved that we are expecting just one miracle in June.  I just keep taking deep breaths, I'm still so shocked!!
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