I need a break, thankfully it's a 3 day weekend!

I can't wait, just one more hour until the weekend officially starts! V. would like to head to the family cabin, I want to just stay home, we'll see who wins. I love the cabin but all too often it ends up being more work than play for me. I just want to sleep for 3 solid days, in which case I'm going to need a serious alarm clock (see image above). You get the idea. I promise to update you next week.

In the mean time, take a moment to thank a solider and pray for the ones who fell so we could have all the liberty we do.

Thankful Thursday

Despite all that is going on with our journey a family of 2+, I choose to be thankful today. We have some really amazing friends, most don't know we are going through all of this, but a few know something is up and have been praying for us. Last night we got to hang out with many of them, we had a BBQ (in the pouring rain, we sat on the covered pouch). It was really fun to just hangout, laugh and eat together as "one odd little family" as J calls us.

*I'll update you on the baby-makin' stuff tomorrow, or perhaps Tuesday*

Waiting, Praying & Breathing

I’m kinda in this weird mental state today. I called the dr. yesterday to let them know it’s been just shy of 90 days with no period and a negative pregnancy test. I got a call back and was told they want to run some blood tests, specifically for my thyroid, and they wanted me to come in within the next 3 hours. I called my mom-in-law, and V. to let them know, told my bff E., sent out a text to two friends and a email to my pastor-friend and shot up some personal “this is in your hands, your will be done.” Prayers and before I knew it, it was time to head off to the dr. Yes I went alone, perhaps to my own detriment, I’m very independent, and really I can get my blood drawn all by myself, other appointments I’m sure I’ll need the support of my beloved V. or someone else but this I could handle. While walking from the dr to the lab, I read the lab slip: Tests for :Thyroid (TSH) and prolactin (Prolactin issues create issues with ovulation.) Also noted on the sheet was to Dx (diagnosis): amenorrhea…..not ovulating. *sigh* I’m not sure why but I was a little shocked to see it written there.

I’m glad to be moving forward, and hopefully obtaining some answers but I’m also scared. First and foremost I do not want to step in front of God and his plans for us. I believe and know that miracles can and absolutely do happen. I fully believe that God not only hears the desires of V. and my heart but will fulfill them, in his time and his way. The human part of me is praying it’s as simple as taking a pill, perhaps to balance a simple hormone imbalance and resort ovulation. I must tread carefully because I know our insurance doesn’t cover any fertility treatments so we’ll likely be paying for all of it out of pocket. I will fully admit to hoping online and reading about thyroid issues, I fit several of the criteria for hypothyroidism, not that I am a dr by any stretch of the imagination.

This is intense but I’m glad something is finally happening, yet at the same time we have only been trying for 6 months, I’m so torn with my emotions. I find a lot of comfort in the book I’m reading “the perfect hormone balance for fertility” while most of it talks about eating organically and balanced, I love the parts that address hormones and how they affect you and what treatments you may or may not need. I have found it to be very middle of the road, while promoting healthy living it also addresses the potential need for medical treatments. The good news is I eat well already, I work out, I have a very healthy BMI and am a active individual. I will be adapting some more changes, not exclusively for fertility but overall health. I am also seeking a yoga class, I know the relaxation will benefit me greatly.

I’m still doing the “one day and one step at a time.” And fully intend to continue it that way; get info, pray and seek God’s will, decide and then act. I will not shoot from the hip so to speak. First we have to find out what is going on with my body.

And right at this moment I’m just waiting, praying and focusing on breathing.