December 30, 2010


Today I was going to write a overly sappy post about how this year has been hard but in the end it redeemed it's self blah blah blah. 
Then I learned early this morning my dear friend lost her baby.  Heartbreak.  It feels so unfair, I want to shout at the universe "you screwed up!".  She is such a wonderful woman and although I can't say I know her husband well, if he's lucky enough to be married to her I'm sure he's amazing too.  I've cried on and off most of the day.  I feel so helpless, there is nothing I can do to even remotely sooth her pain, her loss, her heartbreak.  I want so desperately to help her, each of my tears is another prayer to God to comfort her during this horribly sad time.
Having a child is the one thing in a woman's life that you just assume will work out naturally and be easy yet it turns out for so many it's a huge struggle.  It's a wonder humanity goes on at all.
So today I'm a bit down for her.  I'm considering postponing my baby-related posts for a while out of respect for the things she is going through, just a heads up.


  1. I have been praying too. How devastating. At least she has friends like you who can help her through this difficult time. You can connect with her on the "Mom" level too which will help her. So sorry to hear this and I will be thinking of her.

  2. Jen, honey, don't feel like you need to censor your baby posts on account of me. I absolutely love hearing about the progress you're making, and you deserve to enjoy this time after the hell you went through to get there! No matter what's going on with me, I'm supporting and loving you and BabyIve. Love you.