In order to keep my sanity and my promise to myself to take this whole thing one day at a time I have made a decision not to test. I will not take a pregnancy test until I have to (requested by dr.) period. I will allow my mind run ramped with "maybe's" and "hopefully's" but I will not test and force myself on a roller coaster of emotions, specifically worry and fear. I am praying that either I get (or am) pregnant or my period shows in the next 18 days and leaving it at the feet of God. This is all his and I will do my best to not interfere in anyway. I'm actively working to reduce my stress and be as in the moment as I can.
I wish no one ever had to "try" to get pregnant but I guess we all have different journeys. Mine will be one day and sometimes one breath at a time.